The past few days have been very interesting, to say the least.
One minute, i'm totally frusterated with Mr.Ok because he won't talk to me,
And the next, my soul is completely softened over,
Because he does the unthinkable: Talks to me.
I ask him a question,
he answers.
Lets have some honest hour.
He hasn't made a physical move on me, yet.
other than the a slight grab of my ass while we were making out, and i think that was accidental..
.. So i asked him about it.
I told him that if he just wanted to be friends, i would be okay with that
[Eventhough i SO wouldn't be]
because he hadn't really made a move.
..he responds [and i quote]," You think I don't like you, because I haven't tried to fuck you?"
I sheepishly smiled to myself... and responded,
"Yeah. I've never had someone not want to fuck me after the first date before."
[other than you know who, but he's been an acception to life. we don't talk about him]
"I usually have to beat them off" [appreciate the pun]
He just laughed, and asked me what he had to do to show me that he liked me.
I smiled today.
A REAL smile.
After talking more, he proceeded to tell me that he could see himself loving me [in the future].
..And I said that I would like that.
So here's the question:
All i know, is that i'm taking this one slow.
See what gestures he makes,
See if he can make me fall in love with him.
This will be fun.
I'm excited for the future.
Matty B.
