I Touched The Earth Today.
It rained today.
I saw the heavens open up,
and weep a song of sorrow upon my face.
Slowly at first,
then thicker and harder it beat upon my skin.
with each dig of the shovel,
a new wave of purity cleansed my every regret.
I stopped for a moment to feel the cool smooth droplets run down my body;
surrounding me in an embrace of frozen acceptance.
I looked up at the sky for a sign,
as i began to dig once again.
the sharp jagged edge of the old wooden shovel,
dug into the side of my leg,
bringing me back to reality.
Blinding pain started to set in,
But before i had the chance to feel somthing,
the frozen tears from the sky
bore down onto the broken flesh,
and sealed my wound in a gentle hug.
i could feel the warm blood travel down my leg,
onto my foot,
and pool between my toes.
finally finished, i took off my sandals
and sat in the rain-soaked earth.
She kindly accepted my bare feet,
and they sunk slightly into the earth.
i could feel my empty soul light up with each second i sat on the ground.
the grasses caressed my wet, numb body,
and held it gently, reassuringly.
the rain persisted,
and i laid there,
tired and alone,
cold and sleek with water,
absorbing the earth.
I cried today.
because i knew that it was okay that i'm the only person who can love me.
because i knew that i was alone.
because...
i had finally come to terms with that.
and it felt good to feel bad.
Matty B.
