I spoke with Mr.MUSE this afternoon.
I've been trying to put things out my mind.
I thought about it all night, after talking to him.
The idea of having a relationship is so daunting.
It's terrifying to me.
With every man i've ever been with,
[with the exception of Mr.OZ]
it's always been about the games,
and the mind fucks..
The toying and the screwing around.
But this is different.
Oh it's different alright.
I'm watching "The Break-Up",
with Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaugn,
and it makes me appreciate my genuine happy feel,
that he gives me.
Even if I end up meeting him tomorrow,
and he tells me that he's just not ready,
Okay i won't lie,
I'd be
but i'll be able to look back at the time we've spent together,
and smile.
I mean, we've never had a bad time.
We've never argued,
We've never fought,
The laughs are genuine and plentiful,
i'm always grinning ear to ear when i know i'm going to see him.
[not to mention the phenominal sex.]
he just.. g'ah!
I'm not sure how he feels, to be honest.
However, i know that if he didn't feel something,
he wouldn't have me waiting all this time.
We'll just cross our fingers.
Matty B.
