Think Twice

I keep punishing myself.
I keep putting myself in situations where i think that my dreams can come true.
wrong.
Wrong.
WRONG.
WRONG!


i just feel.. vapid and empty. for some reason, i feel a spark, i feel... a little light of hope, and i try to force everything i can out of it, until it is just a little ball of crumpled up dreams in the gutter that is my consious mind.

i need to grow up.

i need ot be realistic.

but when i kiss him...
..it feels like home.

Thinner, skinnier, dirtier, gothier, grungier, sexier-
Matty B.