Things really turned around for me yesterday.
I had this appifany: I don't have to be a cold heart bitch all the time.
I mean, yes it is absolutly fabulous, and every one loves to hate you,
but what if people loved to love me?
It's a foreign concept, but with everything that's been happening, it's not really worth being an asshole all the time.
Miss Business has been sick the past couple of days, so i havn't had my BFF there with me at school.. Which is uncomfortable for me.
I found myself with my usual school lunch: an apple, a banana, and chocolate milk, and i was looking around, and i didn't really have anyone to sit with. Wait- that's a lie: i didn't have anyone to sit with.
EVERYONE hates me.
As they should. I haven't been the most appealing or friendly person since i've gotten back to school. I am absolutly sick and tired of people talking about Mr.Oz.
Mr.Oz and I are
It sucks because the first thing people ask me, is "OMG! I haven't seen you all summer! How are you and Mr.Oz? You two were SO SO cute together! I really miss seeing you in the hallways, holding hands. You two were adorable! I KNOW you're life partners! I mean, look at the way you two are together. You are SO in love. I just remember you two making my day so much better!"
It's thrilling to tell people that we broke up, he wants to fuck other people, and that he's not in love with me.
It is really my pleasure to be stopped every 10 feet by some stupid bitch with a huge bleached white smile, tell me all this shit abou thow we're "so cute" or "meant to be, i know it".
We Broke Up.
He doesn't love me.
Do you want me to put it in a simpler term for you?
I really put myself in a social handycap being with Mr.Oz all last year.
I don't know anyone this year,
and no one knows me.
they know "us".
It sucks, because i'm a nrew and different person.. and no one can see that. it doesn't matter that we broke up, they still insist on bringing it up.. As if they are trying to pursuade me to get back together with him, as if I HAVE ANY SAY IN THE MATTER AT ALL. and for clairification? I DON'T.
So here I am.
trying to start a new page of my life.
new clothes.
new hair.
new attituse on life.
single.
trying to mingle.
..and "nice" (or as close to nice as i'm going to get)
take me or leave me, bitches.
Matty B.
DON'T WORRY- to those people who don't deserve life, i'm still i nasty bitch, but in general to people that aren't half bad, i think i can learn to be... nice. or at least civil.
