Suddenly I See!
People are funny.
Mr. Ok is over at my house right now,
smoking a cigarette,
drinkin' a beer with his cousin (who went to highschool with my roommate),
and in the two hours that he's been here,
he hasn't even acknowleged that i was even present.
He didn't even say anything when i accidently tripped over him.. TWICE.
It's like I'm not even here.
What am I supposed to think?
Ugh.
Little examples such as this makes me loose faith in the homosexual male population.
Especially after he's been feeding me lines that he
"REALLY wants to see me."
or
"I Miss you SO much."
*scoff*
WTF?
Typical guy?
Sad.
~
But wait- there's more.
I get a text from him, while im downstairs talking to the Roommates,
asking me if i'm mad at him.
Hm.
Apparently he's "napping" on my bed upstairs.
Hm..
Guatemala Bean says that looks like an invitation.
What do i do?
I RSVP, and haul ass upstairs,
(while keeping my cool and suave)
And there he is, lying on my bed.
Hm...
So he just left my house, with his cousin and her life partner.
We were lying in my bed,
and i was holding him.
His cousin is coming up to get him,
and he whispers in my ear to pretend to be asleep.
So, I do.
I dunno.
The feeling of his cigarette-beer musky breath on the nappe of my neck..
He left 20 minutes ago,
and i can still feel his stubble on my neck,
his arms around my torso.
It's hard, because he's so sweet.
but then somtimes it's like i'm not even there.
What do I make of that?
I mean, i want to try to pursue something
(not a relationship, per-say)
but something...
deeper than making out.
It kinda feels like im in 7th grade again.
Do you like me?
Check Box:
[_] Yes
[_] No
[_]Maybe
Except it's a little bit deeper.
I think the note would look more like this:
Do you plan to pursue anything further with me? [Y/N]
Damn. Boys are complicated.
Matty B.
