Law and Order
I'm getting emotional.
I'm prepared.
I'm sad.
I'm trilled.
I'm terrified.
I'm terrified that i'm going to fall in love with her,
and NEVER come back.
It's the same fear my friends and family have.
Because we all know,
that there has to be more to life than coming off ecstacy in Mr.Angel's dad's basement.
There has to be more to life than pretending to like someone,
so that he doesn't talk shit, and make everyone hate you.
There has ot be more than horrible gays at the club,
just to hate.
There has to be someone out there that won't take me for granted,
that can appreciate the honesty and loyalty I have to offer.
There has to be more out there,
than just getting fucked.
Once, I would like to wake up with someone next to me.
..and be able to remember the previous night.
I just want someone who will smile when i trip on something and fall over,
Someone that will laugh when i fall out of bed..
Someone who grins when i burn the toast.
Someone who grabs the keys to go out to breakfast,
when i'm clearly still too sleepy to make breakfast properly.
I want security.
I want to be able to take care of someone,
and in return i want to be taken care of.
When i'm brushing my teeth,
and i look into the mirror,
I want to feel arms around my waist, hugging me,
and a smile.
When i dance around the apartment cleaning,
and dancing to music in just my underwear,
I want that to be appreciated.
I want to live.
And I can't do that here.
Matty B.
