This Is The Good Ship Lifestyle

I feel like I’m spinning out of control.
I try to focus, but everything is twisted.
Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don’t know if I can trust you.
I don’t understand what you want from me.

I just called my mom and my grandma.
I think I am going to go visit them.
I really need to get away from everything.
I really need to do laundry.
As weird as this sounds,
I feel like I can start fresh,
When I have a clean living space.
It seems that my life has been pretty grey lately.
Between fighting whatever is trying to pull me under,
And trying to have a life,
Things just even out to be grey.

Even my sex life has been half-hazard.
I’ve been having the WORST sex of my life.
It’s been so boring,
I’ve been topping.
…

I just lie back,
And let ‘em ride.
It is so unfulfilling.