You Really Are My Ecstacy PART DEUX
He wants to marry her.
this whole threeway thing is nearing the finish line,
and i'm pullin' 3rd.
How can I compete with 2 YEARS of history.
that's quite the head start.
It sucks, because he sends me messages like
"You deserve the sky, and so much more-"
"I had so much fun with you this weekend, you make me smile and laugh-"
and
"Baby, hot raver boys will come and go, but i'll always be here for you in the end-"
then he tells me he see's him and Girlfriend getting married.
wait-
WHAT?
so am I just a cute little jelousy tool?
did you even wrote those words, or were they given to you by my friends who know what i liek to hear, to ATTEMP to make me feel better?
Just because you kiss boys, doesn't make you Bi.
Just because you kiss me, doesn't mean you can have a relationship with me.
And How dare you say things like that you don't mean?
THAT is mean.
How could you mean words like that, when you want to be with Girlfriend?
Don't tell me what i want to hear.
be
BRUTALLY honest.
like i always say,
Honesty all the way, take no prisioners.
Go for the gold, no matter who it hurts.
So that's what i'm doing.
You played to my soft side.
You tell me things that i NEVER hear,
You tell me i'm beautiful when you know i'm not.
I have to ask you for a kiss.
It pains you to have to touch me.
Why can't you be honest with me?
Because feeling ashamed and ugly and unwated really hurts.
you say a lot to the contrary,
but your actions and body movement tell me a completely different story.
I ask me to dance with you,
and you don't even look in my eyes.
Worst of all, you don't even look at my body.
You're looking at Girlfriend wiggling around 10 feet behind me.
I can't compete with that.
I just..
I'm just inferior.
Matty B.